Does this feel like a day in your life of recovery?
Have you ever wondered how you’re ever so important bus-i-ness makes you feel SO important and that no one else can do what you do?
I’ve been thinking about how I run around and throw myself into my non-stop ever demanding merry go round of bus-i-ness with my tentacles into absolutely everything and that I am truly deluding myself, that I am this ever so very important person!!!
If I take a moment to press PAUSE, I realize now, that I may have misinterpreted my importance as a way to know my value, and maybe it is time to “get over myself.” This is a big idea, and I’d like to touch on what that really means to me. Getting over myself, is truly knowing my value while at the same time minimizing my importance. As part of any good human behavior, we all need to keep our ego the right size. Sure, it is important to build healthy self-esteem BUT sometimes, I see myself getting carried away with the importance of what I’m doing and continue to think I am indispensable rather than dispensable.
When I’m totally not able to think clearly, it is a personal reminder to pause, watch, and think before I say anything or take any action. I believe it is an important component as to how we show up in life. How reactive am I to the environment around me? This leads me to an important acronym in the recovery circles, called HALT, Hungry, Angry, Lonely and Tired. I have learned that if I am operating under any one of these conditions, I show up completely differently in life. I just can’t show up in the same manner as when I am not.
It is my hope to show up a little more even keel, less inflammatory, more laid back, not as reactive; but it hard when we are working under heightened conditions that can easily bring out the worst in us. So HALT/S for me is a reminder to check in with myself, and I have added an S for STRESS, whoa, we all know that one! I really want to emphasize how stress can aggravate you to become so much more easily agitated and frustrated, and it is now coined as a modern day disease. We have to learn to live within the environment of stress, and make peace with it.
Sometimes, we may not be able to change our circumstances. However we can change our reactions to the situation. So really, it is about knowing yourself, because if I am going to make a judgment call under any one of the conditions of HALT/S, it may have a very different outcome. What I do know, is just suspend whatever action I need to do, maybe I don’t need to figure it out this very moment. Maybe, I don’t need to take action at this time, maybe I can park it for a few hours or a few days and come back to it and see if I feel different about a situation when I’m feeling more grounded. I think being resilient is the key and it is what I personally strive for. This keeps me from getting myself into trouble and making ineffective decisions when I am not operating under duress.